Long day

Le sigh. I woke up too early and took BFF to go see her ex. I did get to toodle around the bookstore though and got a good book, so that's a plus. Also went to Braum's and got a big french fries. Nom nom nom french fries.

I came home and Daddy and I had to go pay the car insurance and stop in at my Grandma's, and then we got milk, and came home, and took a nap. Then he got up and went to work.

It doesn't sound like much but I am SO DAMN EXHAUSTED right now I can't even think straight. Sigh.

That's my whine. Hoorah.

Um. Yeah.

So, I'm working. Hooray. And nano-ing. Also hooray. I'm still on track as far as word count goes, I just need to go to the nano site and update my word count.

I got a 14 pound box of cat litter, three candy bars, and a box of breathe right strips for 1.97 at Walgreen's today. Epic home-maker/money saving win!

I got laid SO GOOD last night! It feels like it's been ages. Daddy pulled my shirt up over my face like a hood so he could play with my tits but I couldn't see, then proceeded to fuck the hell out of me, slap my tits around, and just generally have a good time. I'm really kind of ready for the baby to be out of me so we can play rough again. I miss scening. :(

Only two months to go though!

Schrodinger's Rapist

I encourage all you ladies (and men too) to read this, to pass it around, to distribute it. To link it to the assholes who consistently e-maul you on fetlife and collarme, and to think of it when the fake Doms of the world try to excuse their asshole behaviors.

Schrodinger's Rapist

One note to leave you with, after reading that: due to the nature of The Thing We Do, our ratio is demonstrably higher than one in six. Be aware when guys are putting out these signals that they won't take no for an answer, and be also aware of the signals you are giving them.

And always remember that there still are 5/6 nice guys out there. Trust me, I found one. :)

Oh, my.

Internet bingo = teh devil. Especially when I have to park myself in front of the PC anyhow for work. I've been playing between calls. Can we say addictive?

Hmm.

Doing nanowrimo - which I am kicking ass and taking names in - is like a direct tap into your subconscious. At least, for me. I type as fast as I think, or pretty close - about 80wpm, more if I'm on a good text editor that auto-capitalizes and changes my minus signs to dashes. I use too many dashes, in related news.

I fully intended a mild suspense story, with a happily ever after, and ended up ditching the guy in the first chapter and having D/s lesbian sex and illicit drug use within the first 10k words. *headdesk*

In A Funk

I'm having a really hard couple days. I don't know why, it's not like anything bad has happened. I guess maybe it's just the pregnancy hormones/my old manic-depressive problems coming up. I dunno.

I just feel kind of restless but yet not motivated to get out and do anything, either. I went to Sam's with Daddy and a friend today, and to target, but that's about all. It sounded like a good idea when we left but when we were actually out it felt like a chore. I don't want to talk to anybody, not even Master, especially not customers. I cancelled my plans with my Grandma. I wish I knew what was wrong and how to fix it but I just don't. I'm uncomfortable physically, yes, with the baby and all, but it's not that bad. Financially and relationship wise we're doing just fine. The house is great, staying clean. I shouldn't be this sad.

I don't even really want to eat, or sleep, or play with myself, or fuck, or anything.

Sigh. I know it's just my old issues and hormones making it worse and it'll wear off in a couple days. Til then I guess I'm gonna try to sleep it off. Night.

Same shit, different day

I'm nekkid for money on the internet right now, thawing chicken and waiting on Daddy to get home to eat it. Then we'll fuck and watch tv online and go to sleep. As far as routine goes, that's a pretty damn good one, if I do say so myself.

So hooray, it's November! Two months til Baby Time. If I can get through November and December then I'll have a couple months off (assuming I make enough during November and December, lol) to cuddle with my new baby-monster and just generally be a happy momma kat. That's what's keeping me going right now. *deep breath* Two months to go.